- Mood:
hungry
Hah. First time to semi- decline a person dear to me. And first time to really direct what I want to say to a person via blog. Sorry. Sorry. Bawi ako after our exams. :(
This also goes out to all my other friends who feel like I'm isolating myself these past few, uhm, weeks. :))))) Ako din eh, I feel that way, too kaso lang wala akong magagawa talaga. Bati tayo ha? :)
- Location:SPUM
- Mood:
contemplative
So I will just tell you how my week went...
I was never really a 'busy' person, swear. I spend gazillion hours online everyday to check my accounts, to play dressup games and to IM people but then the past two weeks weren't like that for me. I worked hands on with the Youth Ministry and that's what took up most of my time almost 24/7. We would start working at eight o'clock in the morning and normally end at nine or ten pm. I was like this at first @________@. But our coordinator/ my childhood friend always reminds the ministry to "do it for Him". I see my youthmates everyday to work on the play, rehearse and plan other summer activites. It was my first time to experience kneeling down for one hour, straight. (vigil) First time also to voice coach and facilitate in dubbing! And second time to 'semi' direct a play. Yey. Fortunately, everything was a success... From the lenten season activities down to the play. :)
Although majority of my youthmates are still in high school, I learned a lot of valuable lessons from them. First is patience. I've realized that in order to produce a good project, you really have to put your heart into it and you must never entertain thoughts like "Nakakapagod na." , "Okay na 'to." and "Pwede na siguro 'to." Okay na isn't an okay answer. We should always do our best in everything that we do. Second is to laugh off annoying things. Sometimes, when you feel like it's best to counter people or things, it's actually better to pause for a while and then just laugh at it because it won't really help if you brood over it and spend a lot of your energy worrying. The third and the last lesson was not really learned from them, but they helped me to realize it. You must never make anyone the center of your life. Because if you do, you will never grow. For the past eighteen years, I've built a lot of circles of friends from different affiliations. But I've been stuck with someone for n freakin years. (SORRY. CAN'T TELL HAHAHA.) I don't have anything against our friendship but what I want to tell you guys is that you should never give your everything to a person. ESPECIALLY YOUR TIME. I remember talking about time in my previous blogs and I actually said, time is the greatest expression of love.
The more time you give to someone, the more you reveal that person's importance and value to you. Because time can never be bought and brought back. It will linger forever and will make you cry after realizing that you've wasted it over something or someone not really worth it. :(
Haaay. Hmm, pahabol na lesson that I've realized while I was typing the previous paragraph. Being busy doesn't guarantee you to not remember someone you don't want to remember. YOU'LL COME ACROSS SOMETHING THAT'LL REMIND YOU OF THAT PERSON AND TRUST ME, IT JUST HAPPENS AND THERE'S NO REMEDY TO THAT.
- Mood:
amused
I arrived at school two and a half hours early so I asked Cibs if we could meet up at Rob. We ended up eating at Momo!:D Momo's that restaurant/ cafe just in front of our school, so near haha. I love the place so much because it's perfect for removing those school day blues. I ordered a ham and egg benedict which made me skip lunch because I was still full at around 12pm! I've also tried their double choco chip muffin last week with Lesh and it's yummy, too. Their strawberry- banana smoothie and raspberry iced tea are just as great!
- Mood:
hungry
Anyway, this is my three- ring diagram:
each one must be lived separately
"It is good to be serious about your vocation but bad to do nothing else except what you do. You must right away start setting up two other rings in the circus of your life."
I swear to JQ I would not know what to do if I ever lose one of those circles. I don't want to end up like Peppo, the clown laughing while his heart broke. I don't want a write- up about me entitled "The Grin is Only Painted On". As much as possible, I want a life that's unabsorbed with just one ring, full of aspirations and free of pretentions.
- Location:CS Lab- D
- Mood:
hopeful
I actually murmured something when mommy was waking me up. Something like, "Lord please naman sana walang lab today kung hinde mala-late na naman ako." HAHAHA.
Then yesterday I think the same thing happened on Phil. Lit. which was also my 7:30 class. Cibs and I were wishing hard while we were on the way since her class also starts at 7:30. We read Dead Stars by Paz Benitez Marquez and I really really enjoyed the story! As in, characters, conflict down to the plot itself. Haaay, try reading it and I swear you'll fall in love with Alfredo. I admire him. Really. Although what he did was heartbreaking, but consider his character as a man of his words. He did what is right. He honored his commitment with Esperanza. I even asked the question to myself! "Did you ever have to choose between something you wanted to do and something you had to do?" Eeept. I am faced with that quessie everyday. :P There's this someone I cannot forget even if people are telling me to do so. Cannot because I think, I don't want to. Haha. So you get the whole picture??? ('Kayyy. my mom was teasing me last night while I was watching _____ BAAAAAD talaga. It brought back so much from the past. Tsk.) Current message for myself: Power of Today. Hahaha. Don't plan ahead. Something will happen if the friendship is really ought to fall apart. Understand and endure. And
Oral test in Intensive English was crappy hahaha. We didn't rehearse for it. But I hope Ms. Gwen's basis is fluency. I hope. We had an early lunch because Mrs. De Guzman had to do some errands for the dean. We finished the seatwork and left an hour early. That was used for the Stat Course Requirement. I also sought for some divine intervention on that. I was fidgeting while studying for the quiz and at the same time doing the req't. Ayra even asked me if I was okay because she felt like I was so indifferent to her yesterday. But everything's okay now, I apologized thru text last night. I CALL IT THURSDAY BLUES. Hello 6 subjects in one day. So sorry ha if masungitan kita sometimes, that's probably due to loads of course requirements and exams. Di ko talaga sinasadya if I become like that. Anyway, back to seeking for divine intervention... After the test, Ms. Reyes allowed us to finish the requirement so we could submit it within the day for additional points. I didn't pay close attention to my paper so when I looked at it I noticed only three computations were left to work on. :D
Then I asked for something good to happen while I was on my way home, around 6:40 pm. When I finally got home, I checked on my accounts and people's blogs and I read something... ASTOUNDING. I didn't really ask for the exact thing but I guess that's God's way of saying "I answer prayers." Thank You po! :D
- Mood:
happy
(Sorry I was not able to do this yesterday.)
1. I wasn't late for Velarde's class! Sabay kami naglakad sa corridor, therefore nauna ako magstep inside the room kasi sa backdoor ako dumaan. :)) Naman. It's Phil. Lit. please? Ayoko ma- F.A. dun bec. of tardiness. :))
2. Saw Ayra again! After a week lang naman. Haha. Aww. I missed her so much. And blockmates din. Sige na nga. I kinda missed them hahaha.
3. MIDTERM GRADE IN INTENSIVE ENGLISH!!!!!!!!1111111 ^_____^ (PM me if you want to know. Yabang o haha. :]])
4. I have my new id na. Pfft. Php500. Pero ang saya lang 'cause I got it within the day eh!
5. The profs and the employees are sooo surprisingly kind and very attentive today! Grabe. Weird.
6. Early dismissal in Neurophysio. Neurophysiological Bases of Behavior. *O yan, Cib. Hahaha. (favorite niya kasi yang subject title ko na yan. lagi niyang pinapaulit- ulit sa kin. :P)*
7. Perfect ko first quiz (finals) sa Stat. (Hindi ako nagyayabang. :P Konti lang. Hahaha. Diba blog ko to?:]] Tsaka this really made me happy eh. Sorry na.)
8. Successful report in Rel.Ed.
- Mood:
lazy
Before leaving for school, I found out my school ID is missing. Shit. I hope you know how difficult it is to secure a new one so you'll understand my drama. As in it ruined my day. My blockmates added to my burden. I was supposed to meet a friend at 1030 but some of them were not cooperating so we finished shooting at 12pm. Haaay, I hate making people wait then I made someone wait for me for 2 friggin hours. It didn't feel good, swear. I also accidentally deleted dad's pictures in the digicam. I told him earlier about it and he was really annoyed. :| (He'll be home in about an hour, so I'll force myself to sleep now.)
Then there's this certain episode in my life last week which I think I'm supposed to forget and I WANT TO FORGET but keeps on haunting me. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.
Please wish me well. :(
I don't think I can survive the whole week like this. It's disappointing. I never thought my life could get as shitty as this again. Things have been going well for me since Midterms. Good grades, good relationships, gimmicks here and there, etc. Then there's this depression lurking around.
- Mood:
crappy
2. Home- cooked pork bbq for lunch!:)
3. Ten to fifteen mins. late lang ako sa meeting. Yehey. Improvement!
4. Err. Youthmates made my tummy hurt from laughing. Mga nonsense na bagay nga naman. XP
5. Merienda at the lanai! Namiss ko yun! Haha.
6. Tikoy. Ohmygosh. Late kami kumain ng tikoy. Does that mean bad luck? Hahaha. Lol. Si dad kasi nagrequest Sunday daw para magkakasama kami. Aww. Mushy haha.
7. Nagbabalik. >_< I'm starting to like someone AGAIN. Tsk haha. Pero ewan it made me feel happy.
8. I saw my crush after the mass! At nakatingin siya pagtingin ko. Then he looked away. :)) ^________^
- Mood:
happy - Music:Prayer of Rupert Mayer
2. I was able to delete the ****** pics from the cam & transfer them right away. Haha.
3. My bestfriend asked me to narrate everything that happened last night. Hahaha. Aww. Natouch ako kasi she was so worried about me.
4. UP-M friends = new plurkmates mwehehe
5. Crunch dark chocolates from dad!:D
6. Nagkaka- future na Phil. Lit. paper ko.
7. Dinner with mom! (Have you noticed lagi kong nasasama sa 8 days chervs ko ang pagkain namin ni mommy together? I don't know about you but it really makes me happy.)
8. No stress.
1. I woke up with a cheerful disposition. =)
2. Ate brunch with pare. At Menelaaa. Hahaha.
3. Ate as in pigged out. Sobra. Hahaha. TOSH, GAB caf, Cheesecake Melliza and NYFD. Sorry. :)) I was feeling kinda depressed earlier then pare told me we should be happy. She asked for my suggestion and I was like, "Tara let's eat." :)) TAPOS ANG DRAMA, TAPOS ANG DEPRESSION. :))
4. I saw Kevin Quioge. He was my classmate back in CSA- Southwoods. Haha. Wala lang. I missed (?) him lang. (HAHAHAHA. Alam naaa.) Here's a picture:

5. Nakapuslit ako inside UP-M. Ang fun sobra. :D
7. Inuman tomorrow at Sherwood. (Recall that in my last post, I said, next week pa. Well, meron next week. At meron tomorrow. HAHAHAHAHA. Anobaaa.)
8. I was feeling lazy and sleepy ten minutes ago and I thought of breaking this 8 days chervs, but here... Nakaabot ako dito. Yipee. Haha.
- Mood:
lazy - Music:Last Christmas! *again* :))
Post about something that made you happy today even if it's just a small thing.
Do this everyday for 8 days without fail.
Tag 8 of your friends to do the same.
January 28, 2009
1. I had a 9.5- hr. sleep last night!
2. My vocal cords were on a hiatus today. As in. I only spoke like twice or thrice today. [Ayyy, I talked to someone on the phone tonight. Sige, but I didn't talk much. XD]
3. I was listening to Hilary Duff the whole day! Yey. :D
New LSS! Not the Eheads' song in the McDo commercial anymore. 'Last Christmas' by Hilary
I belt out on the 2:29- 2:36 part! Haha.
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4. No acad classes this week!
5. I finally finished reading RD's January ish.
6. I got reminded of an inuman next week. Haha. Long time no drink, boo.
7. Gained 8 new fans at Plurk so my karma went up! Yipee.
8. Tonight, I stood up for what is right. I got angry but did not sin. =)
I got tagged by
I tag Ate Yoomeee only. :)
- Mood:
sleepy - Music:Last Christmas! See?:))
"Oi, you're doing too much."
"Wag na! Ginawa niya na ba yun sa'yo?"
Those were my friends' replies when I was asking for their reaction on something I was supposed to do today.
What is the good of friendship if one cannot say exactly what one means? Anybody can say charming things and try to please and to flatter, but a true friend always says unpleasant things, and does not mind giving pain. Indeed, if he is a really true friend he prefers it, for he knows that then he is doing good.
Indeedy. Thanks ____ & ____! You know who you are.
I just thought this would be sweet:


Then again, it's too much. And I don't want to be that person again. I realized, wala namang epekto sa'yo.
We’ve all had them. Relationships with people who take more than they give. I’ve even had a few where I really liked the individual, felt like I had a lot in common with them, and still had a hard time staying friends with them because I was responsible for their happiness or their problems or their homework.
Last of all: I've learned - that no matter how much you care, some people just don't care back.
- Mood:
calm
B- ashful! kay, sometimes naman. To strangers haha. Case in point: We were at Galera for New Year the past few days, and there was this supeeeeeer gorgeous erm, person. I was stalking him at the resort but I never really talked to him. (BTW, our room's 307, theirs is 308 HAHAHAHA) Hiya ako ehhh. =))
C- razy! I call out random names at random people when I'm high, but only if I'm with Cibs, of course.
D- elirious. With school stuff coz school's on again on Tuesday. >_<
E- lusive. I sure admit to being odd and unpredictable sometimes. I even contradict my own opinions when very confused. Afterall, that's what a Gemini is. Hah. We're dual- natured, yaknow.
F- earless. I'll go anywhere & fight (not just for anyone, of course) if it/ he's deserving.
G- ood. Well, people are generally good accdg. to a theory.
H- appy-go-lucky. I can risk everything and just about anything just because I feel like doing so haha, tsk.
I- mperfect. Everyone is. But I believe I'm very imperfect.
I am a mouth- breather, can't pronounce the letter S properly, snore a lot when I'm tired, am a bad dancer, don't know how to play chess, can't ride the space shuttle with my eyes open, still sit the Montessorian way sometimes (indian sit hah), can’t whistle, hate cleaning my room, get jealous with random people who are related to the person I like so I track them on social networks, scream a lot and really loud when I’m afraid or shocked, cry myself to sleep rather than talk when I'm depressed... etc. etc.
J- obless! And am hoping to land on an HR position as soon as I graduate. Werq, werq, werq. :)
K- indhearted (EWW. Sige na nga. Sa friends hahaha. Go ask them. They can attest to that.)
L- azy! Promise. I delay things a lot. It would take me weeks (when already grounded haha) to clean my bedroom.
M- ature. When I turned 18, I feel like my cerebrum has reached its max. size!:) But when stress gets the best of me, I resort to reckless decisions. Tsk.
N- ostalgic. I love dwelling on the past. It gives me a feeling of home and security.
O- utgoing. I love love love hanging out with my friends. Be it at the school, mall, gas station, friend's house... wherever.
P- ossessive. I am threatened when other people come and take my friends away... kay, it's not like they're going to die. LOL. think of, "Ui wait lang ah, excuse muna. Pasama lang ako kay Anna sa bookstore." (even if it's unintended I FREAK OUT. I REALLY DO.)
Q- uirky. I don't wear the same pair of socks. My chucks' shoelaces are also something else. Hahaha. Yellow ribbon on the left, red on the right. And yes, my shoes are green. Ang baduy, don't tell me "Ui pasko." It's so rastafarian. (Reggae, in case you didn't get that. :)))
R- hetorical. I love love love theoretical talks. I'm also fond of blabbering metaphors even in a casual conversation.
S- hallow. Nutella, Gummibears, coloring books, Spongebob stuff, long walks and regular gigs would suffice!:D
T- houghtful. I love giving gifts and organizing surprise parties.
U- pbeat. I hate dead air the most. No dull moments, sabi nga. In terms of music, hmm, I'd say... Hilary Duff!:) I love her to bits.
V- ague. I tend to elaborate things a lot. Sometimes, I don't go straight to the point hahaha.
W- eak. I CANNOT OPEN A CAN OF VIENNA SAUSAGE. (Note: Yung may latch na yon ha! Oh well, takot masugatan. :P) I always stumble inside the LRT. I cannot run a long distance.
Y- ellow. Very yellow. From my bedroom walls down to my cabinet, purse, bag, havs, chucks, shoelaces, lecture notebook and pen.
Z- ealous. When I really like what I'm doing, I could sacrifice my health for it.
Hey you, if you happen to come across this:
Ang kapal mo lang. [Haha. Natatawa ako. Really. Kasi it's so impossible for me to say this to your face, kasi naman... We're not like this when we're together. We don't talk about stuff when we're together. Weird nga no. We don't tackle our issues face to face. We do it on y!m.] GAGGY KA. I HATE YOU. *in a shallow concept lang, k?* YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT.
DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
You ruined my social life. You ruined my 4th year. :(
Di nga. I was contemplating on random things earlier, tas bigla kong naisip yun. Oo nga, ang saya ko nuon... partly bec. of you din pero HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLO.
I'm not mad at you. Kakairita lang that you made me believe in something which I'm not supposed to believe. YOU DIDN'T TELL ME, JUST BEC. I WASN'T ASKING. YOU WERE SO WRONG. HAHAHA. I wasted my precious time on you kaya. :D
I was cleaning my room earlier when I saw our 4th year pics. IHATEYOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I couldn't stop laughing, emoting & cursing.
Yun lang, pero other than that... You're still my bestfriend. Leche. Hahahaha. There's no changing that. :D
- Mood:
blank
(This entry's kinda long but I guarantee you, v. essential ito for 2009)
I say 2008's the best year in my life, so far. I've learned these important lessons in life which I realized, can never be learned in school:
- At the end of the day, when all is said and done, your family will always be there for you; FRIENDS COME & GO.
- We must always consider unconditional love in everything that we do, especially in friendship. If you're really friends with a person, you should be friends with all of him---not the part of him you can easily understand. A true friend is someone who'll take you for who you are. Masakit maiwanan, kaya wag mang- iwan. Yun lang yon haha. YOU DON'T JUST GIVE UP ON SOMEONE JUST BECAUSE.
- If your friend needs someone to talk to about a rough day or a bad situation, listen attentively and then offer your support. DONT BE JUDGEMENTAL.LISTEN INTENTLY. Offer good advice. If you can't offer any advice, give encouraging words. WAG SABIHING ANG TAFT AY MALAYO SA QC. MAY LRT1, LRT2 at MRT. LOL. Srsly, diba nga: 1.) A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out. 2.) A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else.

- In love, letting go isn’t about giving up... it’s about accepting that there are things that cannot be.
- Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a full day without thinking about. HAHAHA. Para mong kakainin mo lahat ng sinabi mo. Di mo kaya, promise. Wag mo na i-try. Pangit ng feeling. Iiyak ka araw- araw habang kumakanta ng A Thousand Miles ni Vanessa Carlton.
- The opposite of love is not hatred, but PITY. It is the cruelest of all emotions. Therefore: Let love not spring from pity when it can be born of love. Mahirap magmahal out of awa. Please lang. Wag mo na ring i-try. Sana wag mangyari sayo. Mas mabuti pa nga yung ma-attract ka physically eh, mabilis lang mawala yun. Eh pag naawa ka, imposible nang mawala yun. :(
- DON'T BE AFRAID TO SAY I LOVE YOU. Sometimes, showing you care for another person's not enough. They have to hear it.
- Pwede rin ang I miss you. Just omit the 'so much'. LOL. Magandang banat ang "I do miss you sometimes." *hello pare, Leshie :D*
Eto naman yung mga mabababaw na lessons, pero importante rin:
- Wag magtitiwala masyado. Dahil sa tiwalang yan, nawalan ako ng cellphone. Eh kasi ba naman, tatawid na lang ako sa kalsada eh, ano bang malay ko snatcher pala yung nasa likod/ tabi ko. =((((((((((((( [Trust is earned. Hindi dapat ibigay ng 100% agad. Be careful of what you say to your friends, malay mo... next sem di na pala kayo friends. NAKO. SAD PERO TRUE.]
- Wag magpapabasa sa ulan. Marami kang mamimiss sa school.
- Pag inoffer-an ng bagay na gusto mo, tama nang pag- isipan ng isang gabi lang. Lalo na kung gusto mo naman talaga, wag nang palagpasin. Dahil kadalasan, nagbabago ang isip ng tao. =)) [Case in point: CELLPHOOOOOOOOONE. LOL. Kasi naman, wag tatanggihan ang E65 dahil lang color red ito. Tingnan ang features, wag ang kulay. *iyak-tawa*]
- Gamitin ang no. of allowable absences wisely. >:) Piliin ang mga klaseng icu- cut. :D
- Wag ubusin ang pera sa kape. Mas masarap pa ring kumain. HAHAHAHA.
- Gamitin ang free time wisely. :D
- Find time to visit the chapel or prayer room in your school.
- Asikasuhin ang clearance ng maaga.
- Makisama sa blockmates na kung minsan ay mahirap intindihin.
- UMUWI NG MAAGA PAG FRIDAY! Wag papaabot ng 6pm sa Buendia kahit anong mangyari. Dahil kahit 4:30 ang dismissal, makakauwi ka ng 9pm.
- Wag nang tatambay sa barkada nang hindi nagpapaalam sa parents dahil pag naalala mo, nakakakonsensiya. Hahahaha.
- Keep in touch with God. He's always willing to listen kahit ano pa yan.
- Do not overeat. *feeling ko, di ko na kailangang i- explain LOL*
- Masaya magmahal. Masayang mahirap. (AYYYYYYYYY. NAKAKAHIYA. HAHAHA. Srsly. Ito pala ang love. Hahahaha. I love love.) :D
I hope you've learned something from this entry haha. Please try to live by it din. I know it's hard but I've learned that if you really want to do something, kahit gano pa yan kahirap, magagawa mo yun. :D
- Mood:
happy - Music:because of you
Subject | Task | Remarks |
Phil. Lit. | Record the story of Juan Osong & put it in a CD. | Done. Ibu-burn na lang. |
English | ---------------------------------- | ---------------------------------- |
Neurophysio | Biopsychology of Psychiatric Disorders (write a substantial & original reaction paper) | Wala pa. *To be compiled as a grp. pero individual to. e- mail to Sir Villanedgar.villan@gmail.com on or before Dec. 31 |
Statistics | ---------------------------------- | ---------------------------------- |
Reled | compose a song about | Done. |
Theories of Personality | Answer questions on Rorshach Inkblot Test, Thematic Perception Test, Draw a person Test | Ewan. Not sure kung ako ba magsesend. Will follow up ASAP. & Try to answer some questions na rin. *edgar.villan@gmail.com |
Biochem Lec | History of Biochemistry | Wala pa. :P |
Biochem Lab | Latest advances in Biochem technology | Wala pa. :P |
Social Psychology | Read Thibaut’s Theory on Attraction & Close Relationships & take pictures | Meron nang pics! Di pa nagbabasa. Hahaha. |
Sports | ---------------------------------- | ---------------------------------- |
Wala akong ganun. Wala yata kaming ganun. LOL. Check this out nang malaman mo.
- Mood:
awake - Music:Out of Reach- Gabrielle
Cibs and I have been going a lot to Makati lately for Christmas shopping. And then this Bloomfields gig. WHICH IS LIKE SO INEVITABLE in this blog. Helppppp. I'm down with this feeling again. I like like like Louie Poco--- again. Hahaha. So is that something to be ashamed of, or what? Idk. I really don't know.

Tapos teka, I...WAS...HOLDING...THIS...BACK...FOR...D
I like someone who's gay.
Eww. Kawawa naman ako. I'm serious ano baaaaa. That someone's from our P.E. class. Grabe. Ano ba to. I love love love his hair kasi and how he altered his polo shirt.
Gawd. He looks so hot kahit bading na bading. Hahaha. I love his slim physique. Ayyy. And the lips. Hahaha. Sana hindi siya naglilipgloss. *crosses fingers* Parang hindi naman. Hahaha. Although nagblublush on and eyeshadow siya sometimes eh. 
*sigh*
- Mood:
embarrassed
Ang tagal kasi magpost ng lahat ng pictures kaya tinamad nako. And I wanted to make a blog about this day sana kaso lang, ewan nag- evaporate na lahat ng thoughts. @_@
Bahala na kayo mag- interpret. Basta, went to the mall with mom & dad tapos lunch. Yownnn.
P.S. Gumagawa ako ng report during lunch. Magaling, magaling. :))
P. P. S. Thank you sa nasagap kong signal sa Pancake House at Lean/ Lance. =)) Thaaanks sobra for printing it.





